Citisen of the World
Written with an 's' because the one with the 'z' was taken!
Wednesday, June 26, 2024
Hard time
Tuesday, April 9, 2024
The System
Tuesday, January 23, 2024
Priorities
My Sister
Restless
Friday, January 5, 2024
I'm still here
I don't write much anymore. Life has changed and gotten smaller. I just read through some of my post from many many years ago, the wild adventures I used to have and realized how much I loved to just start a journey, partially planned, and just figure it out. Navigate situations, rely on my instinct, and just... experience the unexpected.
Now, life is very predictable. I was looking for this though, maybe not quite to this extent though. I do miss the wildness I used to experience.
Now I work, I spend some time with my kids and husband, and then I paint, or zone out on social media.
I'm trying to re-connect with my sister. We've had a falling out a long time ago, and we've both grown in our own ways, and we don't know each other anymore. I used to be angry at her for not reaching out. Who knows what her experience was. I'm sure she was angry too, seems like it anyways. Any time either of us brought anything up trying to talk, it ended up in some serious emotional outbursts and lashing out. We haven't really been in each others lives since 2007 since I left for Korea and have had just a surface interaction with my sister and parents.
Well, such is life now... trying to figure out how to be a 40 year old person, with little kids, financial burdens, with a desire to be creative and not much free time available. Maybe this year I'll start painting early and vigorously, and sell like mad at the Christmas shows, and who knows... maybe not need to work so hard, take more time off. That would be nice.
Sunday, November 5, 2023
Fall Poem
The colours I painted
Have come back again,
So vibrant and beautiful
But intimidating too.
I want to paint them
On canvas or rock,
But I worry that I
Won't capture the real
Nature around
But only stick figures will come out
Of my measly attempts
At putting paint on a surface
That was previously bare
And now is full
Of a person's attempt
At being an artist
Who has thoroughly failed.
Saturday, April 16, 2022
Faking it
I've come pretty far in my painting.
I started simple and very quickly dove in and done very detailed work. Dogs, cats and people. I've done abstract and some fun designs as well.
Every time I do another painting though, I worry that I'll have forgotten how to paint. Then I finish it and am relieved to see that I am still able to do it.
It feels like some secret I discovered, not something that I've worked at to learn.
It started with paint by numbers, and then I saw a Facebook post about painting rocks and tried a few.
And that's that. I feel like I'm cheating or just colouring, but then I look at all the rocks that I have painted and know it's not really just colouring.
These are some of my best pieces.