Tuesday, July 3, 2018

Raising kids

Raising kids is a lonely business. Just like pregnancy was, for me it all feels like I'm left alone to handle, figure out, and just do it. I thought parenting, even at this early stage would be shared between parents, where both take on responsability, try things when it's not working, take on the burden of dealing with a crying infant so the other can get a rest. Be partners and support each other.

Maybe my experience is thus because my partner is lacking and not pulling his weight.

It very much feels like I'm a single parent most of the time. It's a lonely time.

Saturday, June 2, 2018

New chapter

In a few hours I'm going to be induced with my second child. I'm experiencing a lot of different emotions. I'm not really nervous about the birth, my hips are made for this. I'm nervous for after the birth. How will we all adjust? How can I help the kids connect and grow close? Will we be able to manage? Will I?

Wednesday, May 16, 2018

Another year gone

Now we have 2 dogs, still in the same apartment, I did have a job which I left a few weeks ago when I went on my 2nd maternity leave :), and now I'm just waiting for our little girl to be born.

Miles is 17 months old now and is a fantastic little person. Every day he does something new.

He walks, runs, babbles, says some words, is learning about the world and growing up just way too fast.


Monday, October 31, 2016

The Long Inbetween

It's been again a long time.

Today finds me married, living in Guelph and 33 weeks pregnant. I've got a lovely husband, cute dog, big apartment, new car, new friends and no job but hey, can't have everything :).

Saturday, March 14, 2015

Spring is Here

I can feel it in the air.

It's cool, but warm. Crisp and full of new beginnings.

The snow is melting and the ground is all muddy.
It still freezes up at night, but thaws up during the day.

The sun is out for longer because of the daylight savings, and it smells like spring as well.
I'm sure there will be a few more cold spells until it's all done, but I hope they are not very long.

Next weekend I'm moving to the new farm, the week after that I'll be done work and will be off on vacation, and then in April I'll be starting at the new place. I'm so excited to be part of a new farming community.

I need to read up on better communication... there will be 6 other people working and living there so an open mind and open heart will be necessary for a smooth integration. I can't wait!!

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

Mind Expanding

So, I discovered Brene Brown a while back. She is a researcher focusing on connection, shame, fear, joy, vulnerability and oh so many other things that make us human and allow us to cultivate better connections with people.

Today I found another great video from her. It's on Blame.

Here's another one on Empathy.

And to give you a better clue as to what Brene Brown is talking about, here is her amazing TED talk that went viral a few years back about Vulnerability.

If any of this speaks to you, check out her book Daring Greatly. It's a wealth of information.

Monday, February 16, 2015

Movie Time

So I saw "Fifty Shades of Grey" with my sis this weekend. WOW! Hot!

It was a bit strange watching a movie like that in the cinema. It was a bit naughty, but I soon got into the film and everything else around me faded away.

It was funny, sexy, romantic, true to the book, and now I'm really excited to see the next 2 movies.

There is one song from the great soundtrack: The Weeknd - Earned It.

I've been listening to this song obsessively on repeat. Here it is for your enjoyment. The video is a bit NSFW :).

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Cuba #2

YES! Vacation can't come sooner.

I've had Shiatsu, massage therapy, and now acupuncture.

But best medicine is rest, with sunshine and ocean waters.

So, I did it!

I'm going to Cuba end of March. YAY!!!!

Tuesday, February 10, 2015


I need a vacation. Seriously!

I can't start a full FULL season without taking a break.

My body is breaking.

My will to work is breaking.

I'm tired... exhausted... tired...

I need to go somewhere warm, humid, sunny... where I can relax, read, maybe paint, and just lounge for a bit.

Might be possible. Maybe... Maybe...

Cool find of the day:
I found this great dance interpretation by Sergei Polunin done to the fantastic song: "Take me to church" by Hozier. Enjoy :)

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Farmer Life

Being a farmer is hard on the body.

Last year was my first year farming. I wasn't even farming the whole time. I had field trips and class days that were spent sitting around and relaxing. 

But I still managed to hurt myself. 

I pushed myself pretty hard every time I was doing something physical, and not really balancing it out with some stretches or Yoga or anything to help my muscles heal.

Now that I'm doing even harder and more repetitive work, I've hurt myself again.

I went to a massage therapist today for the first time. It was great!

She didn't fix me, but helped me a lot, and I'll have to go back a few more times for sure.

It's just my first year, so I know it'll get better.

And I'm strong, and determined!