Friday, November 29, 2013


YAAAAY!! I got accepted to the full season farming internship in Canada at Everdale Farm. YAAAY!!! 

I'm so excited! I knew I'd be accepted, but I still had some doubts. I hadn't heard from them for a while, but after checking in with them, they let me know pretty quickly that yes, I got in. 

So now, my plans are in motion, working out, on their way... all that wonderful stuff!

Before I start the farming course, I need to do a Permaculture Design Course (PDC).

I want the foundation of my farming to be permaculture, so I need to do the PDC before the farming course.

I've got February and March to do that, so YAY!!!


Wednesday, November 27, 2013


I've been going through a lot of personal reflection lately.
First family and roots. 
Then a personal challenge. 
Now friends and exploration. 
It's like a therapy recipe. 
I've written a lot down as well, to clarify it and also make it concrete. 
I'm glad it doesn't sound like crap when reading again the next morning though. 
But everything that has happened has been for a reason, and there's been a lesson in everything. 
Just like on the Camino. 
I'm glad I learned this lesson. 

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

My Birthday and other lessons

Ok, another day, another regular day. I don’t see what the big deal is. It means nothing, it really doesn’t. I used to secretly like the attention, but now, no, I actually don’t even secretly want the attention anymore. Really! Last year, yea, it was a bit different for me. I turned 30 last year. And yes, we are talking about my birthday. 

Today I’m turning 31. And I feel a lot of pressure from people to celebrate it. 
To make a big deal about it. 

It’s not a big deal. It’s just another day. I don’t really count my years, my months, my days, my hours… I don’t have a watch. I don’t have a schedule. My phone didn’t work for almost 2 months. I didn’t even know what day it was half of the time. I do know what month it is, though lately that’s gotten a bit unimportant as well. All this is just a fabricated idea of dividing your time up. 

Why would I want to do that? It’s not very natural to me. I find I live better and think better when I have fluidity and fewer restrictions.

Travelling has given me that, fluidity and fewer restrictions.

That’s why I’ve learned so much about myself in these 3 months.

I’m a really strong person. I have determination. I didn’t even realize that before.

For almost 7 years I did a 9-5 teaching job. Completely restricted, especially in such a controlled social environment as Korea, the South, not the North. I could really feel myself fading in the last couple of years. 

I know it was bad for me, but I had to keep going. I had to pay off my student debt. I couldn’t really start my life and live it the way I wanted to, with no restrictions, if I had 300-500 dollars to pay every month for the next 10 years. I would have had to get a job, buckle down, and pay that shit off. 

No travelling, no expanding of my mind and understanding of the world and the people in it, no learning of the diversity of possible ways to live my life, no growing beyond my conditioning as a child, no realizing what kind of living style I need to stay healthy and be satisfied in life, no discovering farming (permaculture) as a real option in my life, no discovery of my life dream and goal of being in or starting an off-grid/selfsustaining/selfsufficient/natural building/artsy teaching eco-community. None of that, and more.

I’m a strong and determined woman. I forgot that.

I’m so grateful for my chance to learn and to live the way I want to.

I am grateful for the people I know, the great friends I’ve been so fortunate to meet, the incredible places I’ve been able to travel to, the wonderful lessons I’ve had the opportunity to learn and the unconventional dreams I have been free and able to nurture.

Thank you!

Wednesday, November 6, 2013


I cried 6 times on this trip.

The first time when I was phisically and mentally done for the day, then realised I had to walk 5km more to the next town where there was an albergue.

The second time when I got to the to of "Monte do Gozo - The Mountain of Joy", because it was the last climb before Santiago.

The third time when I got to the cathedral, and passed by a person playing the bag pipes, I was tired and sore and wet and cold, and just flew the last 4.7km through the city, and there was the cathedral, the end of my journey.

The 4th time was when I got my Compostella, the old latin document that states you walked the entire way. The recognition of my achievement, like a diploma of personal growth.

The 5th time was the next day at noon, at the pilgrims mass, when the nun was leading the singing, and the packed church was singing along. The priest was addressing the pilgrims and talking about their, our, journey.

The last time when I left from Finisterre, left Maria there on the side of the hill, and now was going back for 1 more day in Santiago with Genie. Then I saw a Camino sign pointing to the path and I just couldn't hold it it.

What an accomplishment, what a wonderful feeling to be done. I am so proud of myself. I am a pilgrim. I am proud of myself. I have done what so many have not been able to do. I am very proud of myself!!

The Camino Teachings

I've learned:

- to let go of things that happened in the past

- to not rely on technology

- how rude it is to be on the phone when together with others

- that when faced with a seemingly impossible task, to just break it down into small managable parts and then everything is doable

- to really appreciate the little things

- to listen to my body

- to trust and stop secondguessing my decisions

- that everything I do is my choice, that I make the decisions and thus have to live with the consequences

- that I have to do what is good for myself

- that being alone is good for my mind

- that being with other people is necessary for my heart

- to be myself no matter what other people think or expect

- that after overcoming a great challenge, it won't be just smooth sailing from there on; there will always be new challenges to face

- to follow my own path and pace

- that I don't need that much food

- that age is not important; it's the mental and emotional growth that really makes a person wiser

- that rest days are important for the body and mind

- that day dreaming is not constructive, but only a distraction from reality

- to trust my instincts

- that I value modesty and a good social ettiquet in people

- to channel my energy towards things I want, not towards things I want to avoid

- to be inspired by people, but not to immitate them

- that I am more alert and energetic in the morning

- that big meals don't help my energy levels

- how important itis to surround myself with people that share similar values as me, but to distance myself from the people that trample all over them

- I am Morning Fire Amazon Ninja

- that everything that happens has a lesson in it; i's not just a bad or good experience

- that change happens all the time, regardless if I rush it or try to delay it; so just enjoy what is happening in the moment

- trust in the way, and it will show itself

Friday, November 1, 2013

Last stretch

Today, Friday, was a day I wanted to give up. I was ready to take the 30 minute taxi ride into Santiago instead of walking the last 30km.
It was raining, it was cold, the wind was blowing and I had no more energy. My heels were killing me, my shoulders were stiff, I was done with the forest and could not appreciate the beauty around me anymore.
But, as in life, one has to go on. I started this journey and I promised myself not to take the bus or taxi and even though I wanted to give up, I couldn't do that on the second to last day.
We were 5km short of our destination, but the 3 of us were wet, cold, tired and hungry. So we decided to stop and find an albergue. When we did, they didn't have the restaurant open, and the next place was 2km up the road.
We walked for another 30 minutes along the dark highway in the rain and wind, but we eventually found it. 
They had a nice fireplace inside. It was really nice and warm and the food was great too.
It was a tough day.
I'm glad I hung in there and made it through that difficult day.