Monday, April 27, 2009

What happened?

I used to be happy.

I found myself looking in the mirror today.

I am bitter and angry and anoyed and unhappy so often.

Is it Korea? Is it the language? Is it the students?

Or is it me, not being happy with where I am in my life?

I don't know.

But I know I'm not like I used to be.

I used to be happy, and smiling all the time.

I don't know what happened...

Monday, April 13, 2009


I cut my hair. I've got short straight hair again. It's weird to have short hair again, but it feels more like me.

Looks good too :).

Sunday, April 12, 2009


It's done.

We are done.

Save the friendship.

And hope we can do better in the future.

Sunday, April 5, 2009


I'm addicted to pizza. I don't think it's the pizza perse, but I'm addicted to the texture, the chewiness of the dough... oh my god!!! I want to order pizza right now. It's so bad! It's not healthy... I have food in the fridge, plenty of cooked food, but I just want something chewy... mmmmm. OK, I'm gonna order some food.


Friday, April 3, 2009

Glad to be home

Well, I went to Seoul for the weekend. Ended up staying only 1 day. I was so glad to be on my way back home to Geojin, where it's quiet and peaceful and people are nice and friendly.

I have gotten used to the isolation and the lack of true friends here. I thought I had a few good friends that I could talk to and share stuff with... I think I have a very different idea of what friends really are. I think friendship for many people means having someone who has something to offer, something that can be gained from them. The sharing and caring and interest isn't really always there.

I thought I had chosen a bit better but again and again I am disappointed by the reality around me.

I have become a lot more focused in the last few weeks. I'm being healthier, more active, spending less money, sending more money home and well, I've come to terms with the sacrifices I have to make at this point in order to get my life back on track and moving forward.

Friends are important but when they don't pull through for you, remembering that my family is always there and that they love me is what matters in the end. For me, friends become family at one point in the relationship, but like I said before, most people do not take a friendship as something serious or as important as I do. It's something that has to be worked at, effort put into sustaining that relationship. If not, it'll just disappear and then you are left wondering what happened... how did we drift away.

So, I'm glad to be back in my little town where nothing happens and there's nothing to do. At least I know there's Abby here and she'll always make time for me and want to spend even 30 minutes in a day with me. It's wonderful to know that.