Friday, January 25, 2008


I had a great moment this morning. It was bright and crispy outside. I was just standing there looking out the window and on the lamp post across the street a white dove landed. It stayed there for about a minute and turned around and was looking in my direction. I stared right at it and I felt like the bird was staring right back at me. This beautiful white bird. It reminded me of a dream my dad had about a crow only here there was a peaceful benevolent feeling.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Different person

I never imagined being where I am, and being how I am right now. I have changed so much, in appearance, mentality, life goals, ideology... And it hasn't even been a year since I've gone away, but being able to change environments so drastically has allowed me to really grow and develop without much influence from the outside. It's all worth it, I wish more people would take the time to get to know themselves more in depth.

I'm only 25, and still have so much more time.

Wonderful day

I woke up this morning to a nice cuddling session, went to work slightly late because it's Friday and it doesn't matter much. Cooked with the kids and played games all morning. Had a good lunch and long break, filled with some more awesome and yummy cuddling. Had a good rest of the day at work, with lots of kids enjoying their classes. And then, I got paid :). Came back home, watched a little of this movie I had ordered on EBay that finally arrived today, then, after some suuper nice cuddling, Ryan and me went and treated ourselves to some nice BBQ at our favourite beef place across the street. We ate, drank and talked for a couple of hours. Then came back, I found a nice full length mirror downstairs where the furniture store throws out things they don't need, bought some delicious ice-cream and went up. Now I'm listening to this awesome album by John Lennon and Yoko Ono.

What a super nice day :D.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

One more year

So, after a lot of thinking and planing and looking at options, I've decided to stay another year with the same school. It will all be just a lot easier now because I've already figured the system out, have all the materials for school, my apartment is all set and looks nice, no use going anywhere else right now and staring everything all over again. So yes, I've decided to stay. This means I'll be here until March 2009. I thought about going to Canada to visit for a week (that's the most I would have off), but it's not time for it yet. I feel free here, my life all in front of me, doing what I need to do to figure out what I should be doing with it, where I should go. It's scary at times. I realised this is the first time I have been away for so long from my parents. The longest time I've been away before was 7 months when I went to England. Next week it'll be 10 months. Wow, so now I've got 14 more months to go until I can leave. Who knows what will happen though, maybe I'll stay again another year after that.

I cut up my credit card the other day. I realised it's idea of a safety net was absolutely false. I get paid, I have money, why have a credit card that obviously will be used regardless of my finances. So, it's gone. Now I buy groceries and cook at home, send my money away and keep my savings. My sister knows how to do it right.