Monday, March 25, 2013

My new tattoo

So, after about 1 year of contemplation, I finally got my 3rd tattoo.

I found the perfect picture, edited it a bit, added the perfect quote, and VOILA!

It is the perfect time for this. Most of my friends have left, I am leaving soon, I am changing my life completely again, good things have come and gone, bad things have come and gone, and everything is impermanent. Well, maybe not this tattoo; this is permanent. 

And the eyes? Well, to remind me to see. Not just look, but to see myself, and my actions, and my dreams and values, and live by them. To strive every day towards what I want in life. 

And to remind myself, that everything will pass.

Monday, March 18, 2013

Loosing people

It does get easier.

I've been here in Korea for 6 years now. I've had two big groups of friends come and go, and I feel I'm handling it better this time around.

I did cry more, and I did share my feelings more, and I think that helped with the healing. I didn't bottle it up and simply ignore it.

People here come just for short periods of time, 1 or 2 years, and then they leave. You make good friends and then they all disperse throughout the world.

I was trying to stop thinking of all of this as a loss, and think of it as an opportunity. Now I have so many more places to visit in the world. Free places to stay at, friends to meet up with and trips to look forward to.

But it's still difficult now. And I still cry when I see something that reminds me of things we used to do together, or when I hear a song that we used to listen to together. Those will never be the same. But again, I'm trying not to think that I won't ever do that again, but to remember how great it was and how fortunate I am to have met such great people.

I've also noticed I have less interest in getting to know the new people that have come. The same thing happened last time, and it took over a year to get back to normal and have a full social life again.

But maybe this time it'll be different, because everything is different now.

I'm leaving as well. FINALLY!

I'm embarking on my own journey. I'll be the one leaving this time around, and others will be left behind to wonder where I am and what new things I'm experiencing.

Well, that comes to everyone in the end. For me: 6.5 years.

I can't wait to get going!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Sad day - Good bye Bernard

Today Bernard left.

He left in the morning.

After knowing him for 2 years and nearly 2 weeks of staying at my house, it was incredibly difficult to let him go.

Now he's off to India, having an adventure with Danny.

I've never met a person that is as happy, as positive and as kind as him.

It was a difficult day. Luckily I've been busy with school and was able to keep myself occupied.

Danny and Bernard staying at my house for a couple of weeks. It was so hard to get up in the morning and go to work when they were sleeping so nicely like this.

 Bernard stuck in the Internet.
Danny trying to be cool with his Mac.

 Bernie is the snuggle master. 
He makes everything look comfy and cozy.

 After 2 years, in the last week, Abby finally allows Bernie to snuggle up.

Trying to make Logan jealous. 
Come back Logan!!

Love you Bernie!! 
Missing you already!

My boys!! They both left. Hope we'll be reunited sometime somewhere.

Logan and Abby. Not many people have been able to get so close to her.