Perspective

It's so easy to loose perspective... to forget why I'm doing all of this...

It's unhealthy to put so much pressure and expectation on finding the right thing...

This way, the present is not enjoyed.

There's just stress and worry about the future...

Things are not happening fast enough,

I'm not experiencing what I thought I'd be experiencing,

I haven't learned what I thought I'd learn yet,

I don't feel I'm any closer to my true purpose...

So much expectation...

So much worry...

So much stress...

I just need to step back, remember why I'm on this journey, relax, remember my belief in following the universe and experience the joys of life, breath, remember to do things I enjoy, and work on small goals and achievements.

Recovery

Well, it's been a stressful week.

A migraine, a persistent headache with nausea, frequent hospital visits...

The feeling of being a burden...

The feeling of being useless...

The feeling of weakness and guilt...

Not being able to think clearly...

Not being active and pursuing my interests...

Not knowing to how to share it...

I'm tired...

I need to put myself back together.

Thanksgiving in Canada

It was a lovely day today.

Cuddling

Cooking

Driving

Family

More Driving

and finally

meeting up with FRIENDS!!!!

Felt like Korea :)

Potluck, and drinks, and music, and house-parties, and great times.

Next time hopefully my boyfriend will be there too :).

Korean Food

Hand in hand with my missing Korean life goes missing the Korean food.

Gamjatang

Tangsuyuk

Galbijim

Mul Nengmyeon

Donkas

Samgyetang

Dakdoritang

Jjimdak

Jajangmyeon

Dokboki

Dakgalbi

Bosam

Duengjang chigae

Pajon

Yukgaejang

Sundubu jigae

Chueotang

Bokumbap

Hobajuk

Jajangmyun

Japchae

Cheese Ramen

Carrerice

Omurice

to just name a few. I was going to add some pictures, but I got distracted.

Those are my favourite foods by far.

Today I went to a Korean grocery store and bought some yummy stuff:

radish kimchi, corn chips, pickled radish, kimbap, banana milk and some red pepper paste

It was nice to be back in that environment, of Korean music, of Korean people, of the language and being happily ignored yet observed at the same time. That strange sense of not being able to communicate, yet still interacting and longing to learn and understand...

What a great and wondrous place.

Home for 7 years.

Absence

Being back in Canada has made my need to write in this blog almost nonexistent.

Things have happened, yes, but not the same way as in Korea.

There, I was experiencing and participating in new things the whole time, so it made sense to write about it. Now... hm... not so much.

I miss Korea, I miss my life there. Even if it was difficult at times, there were so many great benefits to being there.

It's hard here, hard to make friends, hard to find things to do, hard to find free time, hard to connect with people, hard to enjoy life so far...

Beginnings are great, but middles are difficult.