Am done

Well, this is it. I'm finished... although it doesn't feel like I thought it would. There was no fanfare... No wishing good luck, no it was a pleasure having you around, no take care, no nothing. Here's your money, your release letter, oh and be out by Sunday. And they already cancelled my phone and my internet by the time I got home. What incredibly cheap people.

So now, I'm at a PC room, wondering what to do next... There's noone around, I have no idea where to go, got no plans... so now what?

What an anti-climax. I thought I would feel more relieved, happier, actually free... but I guess that was just an expectation.

Not anymore...

Well, I didn't hear anything from Japan about the course reservation and I had to make a decision because I had to buy the ticket because it is high season and tickets are very expensive. So, I finally managed to call them, and they said the course is full and that the website is not updated... :(
So, this means I can't go... darn it!!! I need to go somewhere. I don't want to be here right now...

Going to Japan

Well, I'll be done in 3 days and then I'll be free. I can't even remember how it feels like to enjoy my day, have plans, socialize, be positive. So, I've decided to go to Japan and do another 10 day meditation retreat. I need to become healthy again, quit smoking, get back on a good sleeping schedule, eat better... I need to be away from any responsibility and just concentrate on myself.

I have forgot myself

Well, it's finally time to move on. This has been a good time to learn and gain the strength to tackle the new challenges ahead. Now, I have 4 more days of work at this school and I will be done until September 1st when I start work at a new school, in another province. More and more people are leaving now, so it's time to make new friends and become active again.

This will be a new start :).

Last weekend I went to a music festival. Here are some of the pictures.


This was the main gate.


As soon as I walked in, I felt like I was in a swamp. It's rainy season here in Korea and there was mud everywhere.


This was the solution. Rubber boots :). Yaaaay, I felt like a little kid.


It was super hot and I didn't have a hat, but I had a towel and that had to do :).


I met a friend from university. We worked at a pub on campus. What a small world!



And then, the reason why I actually went to this concert: UNDERWORLD!!!! The best concert I've ever seen was with this group. Absolutely fantastic!!

A change is gonna come

So, am finally ready to get out of this cocoon of mine. I'm ready to break out and move on to better things. It's great, I'm finally ready, and in 1 month I'll be finally moving on. It's good timing.

Realisation

For quite a while now I've felt the need to go back to Canada, I guess mostly to get the approval from the people I know. Approval for my change, my growth, my independence, my personality. Well, I realised today that I won't get that there, I won't get that from anyone but myself. I have changed so much, yet people back there still see me the same way I was before and do not see me for who I am now. I don't want to be like anyone I know there, I don't want to do what anyone I know does there, I'm not sure yet what I want to do with my life, but I know I'm on my own path and I've got to follow it, wherever it takes me.

Random pictures

These are some random pictures that I didn't get a chance to post on here.

I GOT IT

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!

I was quite nervous, because my recruiter told me the two people who interviewed before me failed. One was not smiling and just seemed not to be very happy, and the other one wasn't talking very much. But I passed. So I got the job!!! Yaaaay!! Now, I have to get a whole bunch of paper work done, things to be sent here and there, photos to be taken... Oh the excitement. So, I start August 25, and finish here at my current job July 18, so I'll have 5 weeks of relaxing, travelling, sightseeing and especially not working. YAAAAAAY.

I miss you

When you're not here, I wait and day-dream about when you are here. When you are here, I have a hard time thinking of anything else. When I know I'm going to see you soon I can't concentrate on what I'm doing and can't wait to be with you and cuddle. I miss you right now even though you are in the room with me, but that's still too far.

PMS

PMS hits you like a brick wall. You know it's coming, you know how it's going to be, but you are still surprised with the mood swings, the crying, the neediness. I wonder if there comes a time when I'll get used to it and handle myself better.

I need some chocolate and a hug!