I have forgot myself

Well, it's finally time to move on. This has been a good time to learn and gain the strength to tackle the new challenges ahead. Now, I have 4 more days of work at this school and I will be done until September 1st when I start work at a new school, in another province. More and more people are leaving now, so it's time to make new friends and become active again.

This will be a new start :).

Last weekend I went to a music festival. Here are some of the pictures.


This was the main gate.


As soon as I walked in, I felt like I was in a swamp. It's rainy season here in Korea and there was mud everywhere.


This was the solution. Rubber boots :). Yaaaay, I felt like a little kid.


It was super hot and I didn't have a hat, but I had a towel and that had to do :).


I met a friend from university. We worked at a pub on campus. What a small world!



And then, the reason why I actually went to this concert: UNDERWORLD!!!! The best concert I've ever seen was with this group. Absolutely fantastic!!

A change is gonna come

So, am finally ready to get out of this cocoon of mine. I'm ready to break out and move on to better things. It's great, I'm finally ready, and in 1 month I'll be finally moving on. It's good timing.

Realisation

For quite a while now I've felt the need to go back to Canada, I guess mostly to get the approval from the people I know. Approval for my change, my growth, my independence, my personality. Well, I realised today that I won't get that there, I won't get that from anyone but myself. I have changed so much, yet people back there still see me the same way I was before and do not see me for who I am now. I don't want to be like anyone I know there, I don't want to do what anyone I know does there, I'm not sure yet what I want to do with my life, but I know I'm on my own path and I've got to follow it, wherever it takes me.

Random pictures

These are some random pictures that I didn't get a chance to post on here.

I GOT IT

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!

I was quite nervous, because my recruiter told me the two people who interviewed before me failed. One was not smiling and just seemed not to be very happy, and the other one wasn't talking very much. But I passed. So I got the job!!! Yaaaay!! Now, I have to get a whole bunch of paper work done, things to be sent here and there, photos to be taken... Oh the excitement. So, I start August 25, and finish here at my current job July 18, so I'll have 5 weeks of relaxing, travelling, sightseeing and especially not working. YAAAAAAY.

I miss you

When you're not here, I wait and day-dream about when you are here. When you are here, I have a hard time thinking of anything else. When I know I'm going to see you soon I can't concentrate on what I'm doing and can't wait to be with you and cuddle. I miss you right now even though you are in the room with me, but that's still too far.

PMS

PMS hits you like a brick wall. You know it's coming, you know how it's going to be, but you are still surprised with the mood swings, the crying, the neediness. I wonder if there comes a time when I'll get used to it and handle myself better.

I need some chocolate and a hug!

Spring is here

Well, spring has finally come. The first rains have fallen, the first flu of the year is here as well. Am being good though, taking multivitamins, taking fish oil pills, taking vitamin C, drinking lots of water, eating lots of healthy salad. I started Yoga as well, but have been so tired lately that I haven't been going consistently.

A year has passed already since I've been here and yesterday I had a strange feeling of being at home in this environment. People weren't staring at me, kids weren't scared of me, old people didn't try to talk to me about their son or daughter that lives in BC and speaks good at English. No, it was just a regular subway ride, with rushing to get a seat, with changing lines, with listening to music and taking naps here and there.

I feel strangely grown up. Not at all like I thought I would be like at this age. I find I'm interested in travelling again, now that it's not so terribly cold and gray outside. I still am unsure of what I'll be doing next, but I'm not worried, I always figure it out and go the right way.

I am happy and grateful to have Ryan in my life right now. I have learned so much from him, about myself, about him, about life, about sharing with someone else. It's a beautiful time in my life and there are just no words to describe this wonderful experience.

It's a new year, and even though I'm still in the same place, I see it all through different eyes. It's all so wonderful :).

I feel alive

Well, after a long time of not doing much, I've finally gotten the energy and drive to get off my ass and do something. On Sunday I woke up, waited around a little bit and then decided to head out. I didn't particularly have any idea where I wanted to go, so I looked in my Seoul guide book and it opened at the spot with the COEX Aquarium. Well, that was perfect. I got on the subway, went there, walked around the huuuuuge mall for about 1 hour until I finally found the Aquarium. It was pretty small, full of screaming kids, but it was still amazing. I saw many different species of shark, mantises, sea horses, and loads of very colourful corals and small fish. It was really really nice. After that I went to a play called "The complete works of William Shakespeare abridged". It was a comedy about all his 37 plays done in 90 minutes. It was OK, but I find they kind of dumbed it down for the Korean understanding and knowledge of slang and western humour. It was still fun to get out and do something like that. Today (Tuesday), I joined a Yoga class. It's free, it's in the building right next to mine, and the ladies there are all super cute. One lady, who spoke pretty well English started talking to me and helped me out with the registration and was explaining to me about the Aerobics class I also want to join. I feel good being out and about interacting with the people around me. On Saturdays there's a cooking class at the nearby Women's Recreation Centre that I'm also going to join. I am so glad there are so many things around me that I can participate in. I finally feel confident and comfortable enough to really immerse myself in all that is around me :).

Technology

Well, what a wonderful way to connect with family that is far far away. I just spent about 3 hours talking to my sister, my mum, my dad, my aunt, my gramma and my cousin, online, almost all at once. We used video and audio to. It was amazing, I was a bit shy and kind of taken by surprise at how amazing it actually is. This kind of stuff was only a thing for science fiction movies, where you would call someone and you could see them live on the other side. Well, here I did it and it was free too. Not the best sound and video quality, but well, it's gonna get better. It was nice to talk to them, even though we didn't really have many new things to share and talk about, but it was just nice to talk to them and see that they still remember you and care about you and remember things that happened a long time ago. I hope I can visit them in Europe this year.